Browsed a website on some ancient form of destiny prediction. Found a link to "what is karma?". On clicking found 'Under Construction'. Pretty symbolic.
Today's day was better than the rest as I just went on typing like crazy. Just wrote whatever I remembered and put into place things the way I liked. This is the nature of my job.Absolutely alone and fearless. It might happen someday I just doze off on my desk and no one bothers me at all. I then wake up and come back home.
Well mornings speeds up by itself. I am grateful to it like anything. I accelerate the afternoons by good string of songs. A meeting or 2 adds to the fun.
Seems like I am working without a very strong motivation. Perhaps I need to undergo this period of restlessness where in I find out what is the real motivation behind my work and and how I am moved by it.
I have always felt that my Singapore visit is little different. Its perhaps my last opportunity to test and try before setting in. Not to confuse it at all with settling in which people generally refer to. I mean they refer to marriage and things attached to it. But in my opinion, a point of time where the restless and experimenting mind just decides to put a stop to multiple dimension of thought processes is the time when one starts settling in. May be I have settled way back and am just anxious about my future now. Now that I have said that it looks scaring and true.
4 years later and thousands of miles away the seeker still is out looking.
Today's day was better than the rest as I just went on typing like crazy. Just wrote whatever I remembered and put into place things the way I liked. This is the nature of my job.Absolutely alone and fearless. It might happen someday I just doze off on my desk and no one bothers me at all. I then wake up and come back home.
Well mornings speeds up by itself. I am grateful to it like anything. I accelerate the afternoons by good string of songs. A meeting or 2 adds to the fun.
Seems like I am working without a very strong motivation. Perhaps I need to undergo this period of restlessness where in I find out what is the real motivation behind my work and and how I am moved by it.
I have always felt that my Singapore visit is little different. Its perhaps my last opportunity to test and try before setting in. Not to confuse it at all with settling in which people generally refer to. I mean they refer to marriage and things attached to it. But in my opinion, a point of time where the restless and experimenting mind just decides to put a stop to multiple dimension of thought processes is the time when one starts settling in. May be I have settled way back and am just anxious about my future now. Now that I have said that it looks scaring and true.
4 years later and thousands of miles away the seeker still is out looking.
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